I feel like a rude fucking awakening. Seriously. I’ve got to get tougher on myself. No more free time, mumbo jumbo bullshit or I’ll end up in deeper trouble.
I’m such a fuck up, I swear. I literally mess up anything good going on. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I might not even be ready for any type of loving relationship. This would be the 3rd relationship possibility I fuck up in 1 year. I really don’t know what’s wrong with me. I know it’s me though. I’m the one with the issue but I just honestly don’t know what it is. It just scares me because I might be pushing anyone that might legitimately like me away. It’s a horrible feeling knowing you’re the problem. I don’t even have any of my life together and I’m already 25 and it sucks. Sometimes I wish I could just start over.
I’ve written so many love stories in my head for me and you. And you’ll never know.
i guess i finally have came to my senses. i should let you go. because you’re happy. and she’s beautiful. she could make you a lot happier then i ever could. she’s so beautiful. you did good, you really did. a lot better then me. don’t leave her like you did me though. don’t break her heart…